LAUNCH: The YouthWorkHacks YouTube Channel

With all the stuck-at-home youth workers, benched students, and digital revolution in ministry taking off, this seems like a pretty legit time to launch the new YouthWorkHacks YouTube Channel.

Who is it for?

I’m aiming all the content in this to begin with at new youth workers, or youth work students. It’s not made for the veteran practitioner. If you find it helpful too – great – but the idea is to stay simple and broad for a while, and just answer the questions students ask.

What’s the content going to be?

To begin with there will be three types of video put into three separate playlists:

1. Q&A

The Q&A videos will all be <5mins answering questions that I’ve heard directly from students, had suggested by teachers, or had emailed in. I’m not making these questions up, so I will run out unless people send me more. So tweet, facebook, email, PM, DM me your questions.

2. Training

The training videos will be longer, but still ‘digest’ versions of longer sessions I do as lectures or seminars. These should still be <30 minutes, but – if you were to do the exercises too – might take you a little longer.

3. Interviews

Coming soon! Staying in the vain of Q&A’s we’ll be doing ‘ask a youth leader’ sections with quality and experienced workers.

Who else will be doing it?

I’m not hugely comfortable on camera to be honest, so I’ll be video casting other voices and leaders from around the block. We’ll also have some of my Youth for Christ team too.

More later?

I will – at some point – expand the content for some deeper, postgrad level engagement, but we’re not there yet, and this is unlikely to ever become the focus. Sorry!

So… examples?

 

Life changing one-day reads for the self-isolated

With many of us spending more time working from home and less time on projects, I thought I would list off some of my very favourite one-day-reads. These are books that can easily be read in one day, with a few brew breaks, and should – every one of them – change how we think.

Please note that I’m not advocating for everything in them, but I am advocating for the effect they have on how we think.

Some are <2hrs, others will take up to 8 (average reading speed). So, in no particular order:

 

Theology

Purity of Heart is to Will One Thing, Søren Kierkegaard

On The Incarnation, St. Athanaisius

The Contemplative Pastor: Returning to the Art of Spiritual Director, Eugene H. Peterson

The Imitation of Christ, Thomas a Kempis

The Reformed Pastor, Richard Baxter

Knowing God, Jim Packer

The Difficult Doctrine Of The Love Of God, Don Carson

God’s Empowering Presence, Gordon Fee

Gospel & Kingdom, Graham Goldsworthy

The Cost Of Discipleship, Dietrich Bonhoffer

Holiness, J.C. Ryle

The Wounded Healer, Henri Nouman

The Passion of Jesus Christ, John Piper.

Holiness & Sexuality, David Peterson (ed.)

 

Politics, Philosophy and Society

The Republic, Plato

Apology of Socrates, Plato

The Communist Manifesto, Friedrich Engels and Karl Marx

On Liberty, John Stewart Mill

Common Sense, Thomas Paine

A Room of One’s Own, Virginia Woolf

In the Shadow of Man, Jane Goodall

Meditations on First Philosophy, René Descartes

Candide or Optimism, Voltaire

Existentialism and Humanism, Jean-Paul Sartre

The Noonday Demon, Kathleen Norris

 

Psychology & Thinking

Syntactic Structures, Noam Chomsky

The Man who Mistook his Wife for a Hat, Oliver Sacks

The Happiness Hypothesis: Putting Ancient Wisdom to the Test of Modern Science, Jonathan Haidt

Thinking, Fast and Slow, Daniel Kahneman

Emotional Intelligence: Why It Can Matter More Than IQ, Daniel Goleman

Against Empathy, Paul Bloom

 

Fiction

1984, George Orwell

Crime and Punishment, Fyodor Dostoyevsky

To Kill a Mockingbird, Harper Lee

The Alchemist, Paulo Coelho

Ender’s Game, Orson Scott Card

Midnight’s Children, Salman Rushdie

The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde Robert Lewis Stevenson

 

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Music, Moshpits, Psalms and Young People – An excerpt from Rebooted

The following is an excerpt from my book, Rebooted. Reclaiming youth ministry for the long haul – a biblical framework.

When I was 16 I had the single most rock n’ roll experience of my whole and entire life.

I was sat in a Christian camp for young people with a friend when we heard that there would be a ‘battle of the bands’ that very evening. This would be a mix of local talents and traveling, well established Christian bands from across the UK. The announcer said that there was room for just one more band. We looked at each other. There was no way we were going to miss this opportunity.

That afternoon we tracked down a bass player, a drummer, and a singer. We went to a music shop and ‘rented’ guitars. In reality, this meant buying the cheapest guitars we could possibly find with the intention of returning them the next day. We then sat in the coffeeshop and acoustically practised Matt Redman’s ’Blessed Be’ at the table over triple shot mochas, while I penned out a horrendous Christian rewrite of Nirvana’s ‘Smells Like Teen Spirit’.

We borrowed drums, a bass guitar and amps from the house band, plugged in (without a sound check) and played to nearly a thousand people. We rocked straight through Blessed Be easily enough, then we brought out our Nirvana rewrite which we had christened ‘Sounds Like the Holy Spirit.’ I got a couple of random guitar solos wedged in, and the drummer threw together a blinding tom-tom solo.

It didn’t matter that we weren’t in time, or in key, and no-one cared how incredibly cheesy we were. It didn’t matter that we had no dynamics and had no idea what the other musicians were doing. We were on fire! We played two songs, and were the only gig that conjured up a full scale mosh pit. I think we might even have scored crowd injuries!

We called ourselves ‘Holy Moses’, and we were terrible!

We were also awesome!

There were ten bands: nine high quality, and well established, talents – and then our rabble. Yet we were voted to come second! It doesn’t get much more rock n’ roll than that.

I will never forget that experience of creativity, community and chaos all rammed harmonically together. I did return my £75 guitar the next day, but I’d like to think it was a little endowed with the spirit of rock.

Music is incredibly important to the human spirit, as well as being vital for the creation of culture within community. Music is also incredibly important to God; it is a fundamental part of His creation with specific purposes.

The Prevalence of Music in the Bible

God’s people constantly used songs in their daily lives and worship. They were essential to the worshipping life of Israel, so much so that God appointed specific people to write and lead these songs.

God’s people, as you’ll probably know, were broken into twelve distinct tribes, each named after its own original ancestor. Each tribe had specific roles to fulfil within the body of Israel. The tribe of Judah, for instance, tended to provide the Kings and politics, while the Levites were responsible for all things Temple and Tabernacle. The Levites were divided into three parts: the Kohanim, who were the Priests, the Temple Guards, and the Musicians (1 Chron 6:31-32). These musicians were exempt from all other duties and, much like surgeons today, had to be on call day and night (1 Chron. 9:33).

The use of music to worship and to proclaim truth was commanded by God across the whole Bible (Ps. 33:2-3) right through into the New Testament (Col. 3:16). In fact, Luke gives four examples of songs being sung at pivotal parts of Jesus’ early story (Elizabeth in Lk. 1:42-45; Mary in Lk. 1:46-55; Zechariah in Lk. 1:68-79; and Simeon in Lk. 2:29-32). Jesus himself sings with his disciples (Mk. 14:26 and Mt. 26:30) quoting Psalms 114-118. He also quotes the words of a song from Psalm 22 on the cross.

The Power of Music in the Bible

Consider that it was song that threw the enemies of God into confusion so that they ended up destroying themselves in the story of Jehoshaphat in 2 Chron. 20:1-29, and it was during song that the chains broke and the stone rolled away in the jail in Acts 16.

The old puritan writers would say that music lifts our affections so that we can see truths about God in ways that could not be grasped purely intellectually. We might more easily say that music helps stuff move from just our heads down to our hearts. The Psalms consistently display music as a powerful emotional expression of love for, and dependency upon, God. William Law famously said,

“Just as singing is a natural effect of joy in the heart so it also has a natural power of rendering the heart joyful… There is nothing that so clears a way for your prayer, nothing that so disperses the dullness of heart, nothing that so purifies the soul from poor and little passions, nothing that so opens heaven, or carries your heart so near it, as these songs of praise.” [ Law, W. (1827). A serious call to a holy and devout life. Glasgow: William Collins. pp.318-318]

The Bible is far from a simply didactic or intellectualised book of Words. The scriptures are alive with music, poetry, art, story and incredible imagery. It would be easy for us to go so far in one direction that we end up making the Bible sound two dimensional and static, when it is in fact living and active (Heb. 4:12).

Full Coverage

If you’re going to buy car insurance, full coverage is probably the safest way to go. In the UK, we have something called ‘Third Party: Fire and Theft’ which is the cheaper option, and basically means that you’re covered if your car gets stolen, or if it spontaneously combusts. Anything else is on you, buddy! Proper full coverage, however, gives legal protections, property and bodily injury liability, collision cover, rental reimbursement, and even windscreen replacements. Looking back at my track record with cars, full coverage has certainly been essential for me.

That is exactly what the Psalms provide – full coverage. They are not just a limited and small part of the Christian life (or Third-Party insurance) – The Psalms cover the entire emotional spectrum of the human condition. Sometimes we make the mistake of thinking that all the Psalms are simply about praise – when in fact these are the minority.

Psalms gave voice and expression to the fullness of the human life and they accompanied all the activities that made God’s people distinct in the world, and then even ubiquitous ones, like eating. Psalms were used to teach (Deut. 31:30), and to mark occasions (Ex. 15:1-21). There were specific Psalms to accompany all acts of worship including sacrifice (Ps. 27:6), parades and processions (42:15), entering the Temple (24), pronouncing blessing (4:6), giving thanks (50:14), confessing sins (51), teaching (1), and praising God (147). God’s people used The Psalms everywhere! And they provided full coverage in two very specific ways:

Emotional expression

Because humans have an incredibly wide emotional spectrum ranging from carnal fear and desperate hopelessness, to majestic joy and giddy excitement, God’s songbook needed to provide for all these occasions. This is why we have Psalms that express fear (22), beauty (Ps. 27:4), gratitude (30:11-12), hope (33), longing (42:1-2), joy (42:5-6), stunned silence (46:10), grief and regret (51:17), desperation (63:1), confession (71), contentment (73:25-26), lament (86), fury (109), and anticipation (144). The Psalms give voice to the widest range of emotional turmoil and satisfaction in our lives. Full coverage!

Propositional truth

The Psalms don’t merely express, they also teach. In the same way that popular music has always provided a liturgy for, or commentary on the culture of the times, the Psalms provided an expression of propositional theology. More simply put: They tell us lots about God. The careful theological content of the Psalms safeguard against purely emotional responses, which can easily marginalise God’s words, exalt musicians, and increase division.

The Psalms, therefore, provide a multifunctional tool that both elevates and expresses our deepest emotions, allowing us to receive genuine propositional truth from different perspectives. There is sometimes truth that we just can’t fully embrace, receive or even understand without the elevation of our hearts through some creative media like music.

Today, music tends to be one of two ways we learn our theology (the other being the sermon), making the content incredibly important. As creative and professional as many of our modern songs are, I’m not convinced that we always put enough effort into the content. I also think that we need to explore a much wider emotional spectrum than just joy and praise.

What does this have to do with youth work?

‘Lots’ would be the pedantic answer. However, you may have already noticed from its omission, that the Psalms themselves contain very little that specifically addresses young people. Rather than shoehorn something in, the applications here will be a little broader and also applicable to the wider church. This, however, will make these ideas no less essential in our youth work.

Creativity and young people

The first thing we ever learn about God is that he makes stuff, and that he does this through the expression of His voice. God is immensely creative, and He made us in His image to also be creative.

I don’t believe there is any such thing as a non-creative person. Not everybody is a fine artist but everybody has a divine innate ability to create stuff. One of the fundamental parts of creativity is the ability to see and solve problems – something humans have to do on a daily basis. Some people do this with more flare, while others are perhaps more modular. I believe that as we grow, however, we have a habit of keeping our creativity in carefully acceptable tracks, and keep the more vibrant artistic side suppressed and under wraps. Children and young people haven’t learned that unfortunate habit yet!

Have you noticed, for instance, just how much children love to dance? I’ve never met a young child that didn’t. I’m part of a fantastic church that has carefully created a safe community where children can gather near the front and dance together during the songs. I remember on one such occasion when we were singing the bridge to the song Your Love Never Fails, which repeats ‘on and on and on and on it goes, and it overwhelms and satisfies my soul…’ During the ‘on and on’ bit, a little boy ran to the front and just ran in a continuous circle until he fell down dizzy. I remember thinking what a beautiful expression of the truth of the song his dance was – and realised that I had been led in worship by that small boy.

Young people are seeking to be expressively creative in times of worship. Once every semester I cover the floor of my hall in plastic sheeting and give every young person a canvas and access to big buckets of paint along with brushes, sponges, pallet knives and squeegees. I tell them to paint something of their relationship with God. The only rule is that it shouldn’t be representative; so it shouldn’t look like an object or a person. This allows them to think about motion, shape and colour in more abstract ways. This always produces a profound experience of worship, and provides a way into talking about where their relationship with God currently is at.

The Psalms are sometimes very abstract, and can connect with different people for different reasons. They give room for expression, and create a conversational context where young people can engage with the various aspects of both their individual and communal relationship with God.

Teaching through creative media

Jesus was a storyteller through and through. He also regularly used object lessons from drawing on the floor, asking for coins off the crowd like a street magician, and pointing directly to people and landmarks.

There are many ways to teach the Bible. Proclamation is important, and didactic intellectual engagement needs to happen for sure, but that should be balanced with performance, participation and conversation.

For the past few years I’ve gotten to be involved in something artfully named ‘The Easter Transition Project’ for a local High School. This is how it looks:

  • Stage 1. Myself and a small team teach the Easter Story to a group of 14 and 15-year-old students during their regular Religious Studies lessons for six whole weeks. We do this through teaching them drama. They learn various acting styles and techniques, they take the Bible home to study the source material for homework, they write their own scripts from it and turn it into short plays.
  • Stage 2. These students present the Easter Story through several narrative short plays to younger pupils from across our region who are about to move up into that High School. Armed with iPads, the younger pupils watch each play taking notes, then have a group discussion pretending they are on the ground journalists. They are given physical evidence to handle, and fake facebook pages are preloaded onto their iPads for each of the characters they have seen on screen.
  • Stage 3. After the plays are performed, the key characters from the Easter story that have been on stage walk to various different locations around town. They stay in character constantly. The younger pupils go out with their iPads, filming them and asking them questions. This means that every 14 and 15-year-old actor has to intimately know their character and fully inhabit their role.
  • Stage 4. The younger pupils go back to their various schools and create news reports to give to their classes. The school inherits the evidence boxes we have made (that included things like rubber severed ears, nails, and crowns of thorns), and keep talking about them.

The stories are read in the Bible, passed down to the older students who then creatively bring them to life in plays, then inhabited by the actors, are passed down to the younger pupils, who then pass the story down to their classes. This is a wonderful representation of the most important story every told, being continuously retold creatively to hundreds of young people.

We need to be creative in our teaching, and use all the tools we have available to us to bring the message of the Gospel to life! The Psalms celebrate the creativity of both God and humans, and give us licence to explore his word creatively – as long as we stay accountable to it.

The Psalms give full coverage, and so must our youth ministry. If our youth project strategies only cater to certain narrow expressions for specific personalities of young people going through particular stages of life when we simply won’t be relevant. This means that we won’t be able to walk with them consistently through all the various aspects of their journeys. Engaging creativity and applying it to the broad spectrum of life is part of what makes the principles of the last three chapters work and come alive!

Young People and Worship

Worship is a lifestyle, not just a sing along and our times of corporate worship should reflect and support this. It’s important to invite young people into these times of worship often, and not guilelessly segregate them from the experience.

These times of worship should give room to express and experience a wide spectrum of emotions before God. Communal worship teaches us to live our lives in light of God – in every occasion. This means we need songs and liturgy that take us through grief and hope, struggle and confidence, confusion and dependence. We need to make sure our worship is experiential so that it engages our whole hearts and reflects the lives we live.

Worship should not, therefore, just be propositional, but raise our affections and engage our emotions. This doesn’t have to be limited to intellectually grasping content. Instead we can embrace all the artistic and creative tools available to us to express the content. I am not a fan of ‘performance’ worship where the band is basically the focus rather than God. I do not, however, have any problem with the careful use of media, lights, volume, or even smoke machines, as long as they have been carefully put together to engage the worshipper, and support the content.

I remember one evening at a large Christian youth festival. I had brought my group to an evening session which turned out to be very powerful. God was speaking clearly to many people on the importance of surrendering pain to Himself, and letting go of historic hurts. God was moving among people, healing old wounds, and bringing the beginnings of reconciliation. There were floods of tears, and heaps of awkwardly entangled hugging young people everywhere. It was emotional, and it was heavy. At that point, the band came on stage, and we all expected they would bring some continuity to the sense in the room. Instead came an enormous 4-4 drum and bass beat, and the singing started up with ‘dance, dance, everybody dance!’ Unsurprisingly no one got up, and no one danced.

The music should always embrace the worshippers healthily and support the Spirit’s movement and the content being taught.

Want to read more? Check out Rebooted for yourself.

 

Addressing a mistake in my journal…

Late last year I wrote a journal which evaluated the incarnational model of youth ministry. I stand by that evaluation as it’s an important and often missing voice from the youth work conversation.

However, upon reflection, I’d like to address a mistake I made in that journal.

In the cutting process I unwittingly oversimplified Prof. Pete Ward’s work to make him sound far too unaware of, or unconcerned with the gospel. This is simply not true of Pete or his work.

Even though I do believe there are important theological omissions, there is no excuse for fallaciously over-reducing anyone’s thinking to fit a tight word count. I needed far more nuance and much more care.

The journal was first written as an essay, then it was developed it into a training resource, then changed again to be a series of blogs, then redone as a few PowerPoint presentations, and then finally reconstructed as this journal. It was, in fact, my first journal that I didn’t expect to be published.

After going through all of these changes I started to feel very impersonal and quite abstract about it and I lost the big picture. It became words on a page and some of the tone suffered as a result. This was espeically true for the early part that I was trying to ‘get out of the way’ before I focused more on Dr. Root and the tradtional doctine of the Incarnation. I needed an objective re-read thinking about the real people behind the pages.

If you’ve read me before, I hope you’ll know that I really try to take immense care when disagreeing with someone publicly. Critiquing brothers and sisters is not something to be done cavalierly – ever. This journal in these places, however, lost a measure of grace that I would usually strive to bring.

In the cutting process, Pete unfairly suffered the whip of my brevity, and I genuinely apologise for this.

I say two things about Pete that oversimplify his position, and – knowing the footnotes and buffer sentences that were removed – now sound unjust and unfair.

First, I say,

‘Other than an undeveloped mention of the unity of God and human (Ward, 1995:17), there is no mention of any aspect of the doctrine of the Incarnation besides revelation.’

And second,

‘…Ward does not clarify what the gospel itself is, other than an abstract no­tion of ‘God’s expression of care for the world’ (1995”17).’

In isolation, this is just not correct and not fair. Although Pete doesn’t link the atonement specifically and functionally into the doctrine of the Incarnation itself, and treats them as separate pieces, he does clearly speak about the Cross and its importance (28ff.).

Pete’s focus is almost entirely relational and doesn’t talk about the effectual nature of Jesus dying for our sins, or the importance of Jesus being both human (just sacrifice) and divine (eternal sacrifice). This was what I was trying to say but cut too much to make this clear. He’s not shooting at the target that I would like him to, but that doens’t mean he isn’t aware of, or doesn’t care about that same target that I do.

Pete clearly loves Jesus, understands the gospel, and wants young people to know it.

I’m a big fan of Pete’s work, and he’s been an important part of our landscape for a long time. I want to hugely plug ‘Growing Up Evangelical’ and ‘Selling Worship.’ Really essential reads for mission-minded leaders in the UK. I don’t think ‘Youthwork and the mission of God’ is the most helpful book for youth ministry, sure, but that doesn’t change the fact that Pete is a wise, knowledgeable, and incredibly experienced practitioner and thinker, with a track record of helping young people meet with Jesus which far outstrips my own. I didn’t make this clear enough.

I wish him the best and deeply apologise that I oversimplified his understanding of, or passion for the gospel.

 

Dear Pastor: How to resource your youth worker in 2020

My wife and I recently acquired a cat – and said cat is a pain.

Cat needs food – she eats more than I do. Cat needs space to poo – she poo’s twice her body weight. Cat needs places to sleep – usually that’s on my face. Cat needs exercise – she likes to ninja dive bomb off my bookcase in the vain hope that I’ll catch her. Cat needs medicine – she keeps eating stuff she shouldn’t which makes her sick. Cat needs affection – cuddles, treats, and being covered in waste paper shows her that she’s loved.

Cat needs a lot! When we strike this balance, cat is also lovely. She’s a fun companion and brings a lot of light to our lives.

Youth workers need stuff too. Keeping your youth worker healthy, happy, and properly motivated is essential for a healthy church ministry. It’s also really not that hard to give value regularly to your youth worker through small, specific, careful gestures. That said, youth workers are not always the best people to ask what precisely it is that they need, so here’s a few ideas:

Reading

Subscriptions

Youth workers need to keep thinking and connecting with new ideas that are on the table today. Two that I’d suggest (in the UK) are Grove Youth Series and Premier Youth and Children’s Work. If you wanted them to go a bit deeper (and you had a bit more money to throw around), then grab the Journal of Youth and Theology too.

Books

Give your youth worker a book budget – or buy them a book every month! Here’s 11 essentials I think every youth leader needs, a list of great books not designed for youth work, and a one year theology reading plan too. Something else you can do is get them a library membership, so they can order these books in rather than having to buy them.

Intentional Space away

Conferences

A lot of UK conferences are location specific – there’a a couple in London that are worthwhile if you’re close enough to go just for a day, and lots of Bible Colleges have day sessions too. More nationally though, check out Growing Young Disciples, the National Youth Ministry Weekend, and the Youth Evangelism Conference.

Planning days

One of the big struggles of the youth worker diary, is intentionally working out days to plan strategies and schedules. These are phone-off days with nothing else on the table. Find time for this to work each term – and maybe send them away for a couple of days to do it.

Breaks

Holidays

You know that little holiday cottage your uncle has? Maybe gift it to your youth worker for a weekend! Look for little ways to give extra mini-breaks for your youth worker to unwind and know they’re loved.

Day’s off

Make sure, make sure, make sure that they are taking their days off – even if you have to buy them a race track day and stick them on a bus to get there!

Babysitting

Sorry, but just regularly inviting your youth worker around for dinner is probably not the answer. You’re their boss, and – even dressed as a social occasion – it’s just going to feel like work. Instead, have their kids round and give your youth worker the night off.

Skill Investment

Training

Invest in your youth worker’s skill set. This could include first aid, advanced safeguarding, conflict resolution, event management, mediation, even a part time PGCE. Think about ways you can deepen their board range of skills. If you’re not sure what might be the most beneficial, talk to a local teacher about what they like to go to (and what to avoid).

Professional Support

One of the things I offer youth workers is Skype coaching. Consider getting your youth worker an outside coach who can help them develop their ministry objectively.

Feedback

Visits

Show up to their projects! Not randomly or aggressively, like an inspection, but with a servant heart and playful demeanour. Get to know the kids and try to be present in that space.

Line management

Every youth worker needs pastoring, mentoring, and line-managing. This is to make sure they’re using their time well, taking their holidays, and are fulfilling their job description. Done well this will give your youth worker much greater confidence in what they’re doing.

Spiritual support

Retreats

Send them away for a few days – either on their own to just be with God, or on a formal retreat where they can be led constructively to connect with Jesus. These don’t need to be youth worker specific – in fact, check out L’abri!

Prayer

Don’t just pray for them randomly, make prayer intentional. Ask them regularly for prayer requests, and visit their office to pray for them in person. Don’t just add it into a meeting, make it special and stand-alone.

Random Acts of Value

Food & movies

A night out with Pizza Hutt and Odeon vouchers is fabulous! Don’t forget to organise the baby sitter.

Just say ‘thanks’

Remember to say thank you formally and publicly when occasions arrive (Membership Meetings etc.), and at specific times of year (Christmas, Easter etc.). Say it randomly and spontaneously – and mean it. Cultivate gratitude for what they do.

 

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Are you a walking wounded youth worker?

Bent double over the dining table, trying desperately to plan out a term of meaningful, life-changing projects. Feeling the crushing weight of irony that nothing has felt meaningful or life-changing for a while. You can’t work.

Lying in bed cradling your pillow tightly against your head, staying unnaturally still, holding muscles tense, heart beating in your throat. Replaying conversations and rehearing soundbites of conflicts never satisfactorily solved. You can’t sleep.

Hearing an email tone on your laptop and immediately starting to breathe harder and lose concentration as palpable dread squeezes itself unwelcomed into your psyche. You see it’s just spam then sigh deeply with tangible relief. You can’t switch off.

Moving your head around and around, pinching at various points where your spine meets your skull, trying to release a pressure that has become constant and subversive. Eyes closed, seeking momentary relief looking to remember a time when you weren’t aching. You can’t stop hurting.

Does any of this sound familiar? You might be one of the many walking wounded youth workers.

Adrenaline – The youth worker drug

It was eventually on doctor’s orders that I moved on from my first ministry position. I was a young, inexperienced youth worker in a deeply unhealthy church. I wasn’t able to handle the constant presence of conflict, which manifested as an ever-present and continuously growing shame.

When shame takes root, all decisions become clouded with fear. When you live with fear as a reactionary constant, then adrenaline production becomes part of your body’s usual function. Once you flood a system with adrenaline for more than a few days at a time, the body begins to shut down. Tension headaches, fatigue, insomnia, even dizziness and blackouts soon follow. The cute word for this is ‘stress’, yet the more biologically sound phrase would be impending total meltdown.

When your heart is filled with shame, your reactions driven by fear, your system full of adrenaline, and your biology ruled by stress, then the result is something a little akin to depression – you numb up, and you seize up.

I’m a guitarist, and one of my favourite sound effects is ‘compression.’ What compression does is boost lower signals and limit stronger ones, so quieter guitar strums are made louder and louder strums made quieter – compressing everything into a smaller spectrum for a consistent sound. This happens to humans too; bad things are amplified into unbearable constants, and amazing things diluted and dulled into insignificance.

This is also a little like coming off an addiction. You crash and you crash hard. When the character Matt Albie from Aaron Sorkin’s comedy-drama ‘Studio 60 on the Sunset Strip’ comes off pills, he is told “Miss America could stand in front of you naked and hand you a Pulitzer Prize and you’d be depressed.”

Personally, you might become strongly combative and comparative, glibly writing swaths of people off for mundane things. You could become personally hurt by some peers’ successes, and quietly revel in the downfall of others.

Spiritually, God seems to go quiet, worship ineffectual, prayer hollow and echoey, and true passion becomes a distant memory. The natural result is that you become not very good at your job – so you try harder, fail more, and hurt more.

Any of this sound familiar? You might be one of the many walking wounded youth workers.

The Walking Wounded

I’ve met so many youth workers with stories of work-related hurt, rejection, stress and loss. Some stories are past tense, yet with an obvious weight still carried around their neck like a milestone on a chain. Others happen in real time. I regularly meet youth workers who are, knowingly or unknowingly, the walking wounded.

Is it you? If so, it’s time to act.

If you’re trapped in a job that is literally draining your health, disempowering your work, abating your healthy relationships, and sucking dry your connection with God then that is not ok.

It’s not normal, and it’s not ok. At least not for any prolonged period of time.

Sure ‘it’s ok to not be ok’ – fine, but staying trapped is a bad plan for getting ok again.

God called you to thrive in your mission and ministry through a network of healthy relationships, empowering and releasing worship, connecting church membership, and a growing, accountable connection to authority.

If this isn’t happening, then something somewhere has to give.

Wounds or scars?

When I was a walking wounded youth worker, I remembered these lyrics from Simon and Garfunkel’s seminal song ‘The Boxer’, and felt painful empathy. Even today they bring a tear to my eye, and a heavy lump to my throat when I remember just how it felt to carry those wounds:

In the clearing stands a boxer
And a fighter by his trade
And he carries the reminders
Of ev’ry glove that laid him down
Or cut him till he cried out
In his anger and his shame
“I am leaving, I am leaving”
But the fighter still remains

The hardest thing about carrying wounds is to take the necessary steps to allow the wounds to heal. Treatment is often uncomfortable, awkward, painful, and even debilitating for a time. You have to trust yourself to others, become vulnerable and exposed, and make big decisions that acknowledge and repair the hurt.

Deep wounds will often leave a scar, but a scar is not a wound. It’s a reminder of pain – and that can hurt too – but it’s not the same as real-time pain.

For me, even when I left a difficult job, I had Post Traumatic Stress Disorder – so I would relive rather than just remember the pain – keeping the wounds from scaring. It wasn’t until a few years later that I saw a therapist and started to address them properly that the hurt began to change shape.

Without treatment, wounds won’t become scars, they will remain as wounds, and you will continue to be the walking wounded, then the crawling wounded, and ultimately just the wounded.

What can you do?

  • It might be you need a clarifying, honest, and vulnerable conversation with your leadership.
  • You could think about talking to a professional therapist or person-centred counsellor.
  • You could list your aims and objectives and think – honestly – about what needs to change to see them happen.
  • You could try to measure your work against realistic and achievable outcomes.
  • You could take your days off and holidays more consistently. Turn your phone off for a while.
  • You could mentally recategorise your work context from local ministry to hostile mission.
  • There might be conferences, networks, and support groups to connect with.

OR…

You might just need to get out.

At some point the poop needs to hit the fan. As much as I value and respect youth workers who say they want to be in it for the long haul, that long haul doesn’t begin if you’re always in defence mode. You can be in a position for ten years and not see any growth or maturity.

You might need a conversation.

I’m happy to chat (timgoughuk@gmail.com), but better somebody who knows you well. Pray. Think. Talk.

 

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Happy New Year – May it be a year of hope!

Happy New Year everybody!

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace (Rom. 15:13). May you rejoice in that same hope as you remain constant in prayer (Rom. 12:12). May you know the assurance of being born again to a living hope (1 Pt. 1:3), the hope that saves (Rom. 8:24-25), that purifies (1 Jn. 3:3), that is God’s own glory (Rom. 5:2-5), which you will share in with Him for eternity (Col. 1:27). May you cling to Him as your very hope throughout 2020 (Ps. 71:5), your portion throughout difficulty (Lam. 3:24), and your safe hiding place (Ps. 119:114). May you continue to hope in His steadfast love (Ps. 33:18), and know that your hope will never be forgotten (Ps. 9:18). May God give you the hope you lack (Ps. 62:5), and drive you towards reaching for Him through all seasons (Ps. 43:5). May your hope make you all the more bold (2 Cor. 3:12), and draw you on towards the final goal (Phil. 3:13-14).

May you hope into, through, and out of the New Year.

All the best

Tim

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Why I’m wary of getting into political conversations with Christians online – and how I’m voting tomorrow.

Three posts – three responses:

Number 1…

After the 2015 election, I wrote a Facebook post sharing my dismay that the Conservatives won with a 12-seat majority. I was outspoken on austerity and believed this represented a painful result for the country’s poorest. I was careful to avoid slander or rudeness but didn’t hide my trepidation.

About ten minutes later I received a furious private message suggesting I should quit my job and shouldn’t be trusted to ever again speak to young people about my views. Because there were Christians within the Conservative party, this person told me I had no right at all to speak against them and should be ashamed of myself for doing so.

Number 2…

In 2016, I posted a link to a piece of research on what age brackets voted in the EU referendum saying it made an ‘interesting read’. I received three angry comments from Christians that I was subjecting democracy.

Number 3…

Fast forward two years. In April 2018 I watched the debate around Syrian airstrikes. During the debate I interacted on Twitter maybe six times. I don’t believe I was rude or offensive, and at least half of those posts were just links to research sites rather than commentary. However, some posts did firmly state that I was against the airstrikes.

I forgot that my Twitter account linked to Facebook, so my tweets were being reposted out of context into a very different arena. An old friend from Bible College sent me a strong message challenging my attitude towards the Conservative Government and suggesting a casual reader may believe I cared more about this than Jesus.

This was a better and fairer response than the others, but it still seemed strange. I did ask what particularly from the posts gave that impression but didn’t receive a response.

Over-reactions?

I am always very careful to avoid posting sensationalised sources, reductionist memes, or slanderous attacks. I try to keep my language balanced and nuanced, but I still try to share an opinion. I believe that my posts were measured, well-meaning, and honest interactions with politics online – met with unreasonable, knee-jerk responses.

Sometimes it’s really obvious that a response has come from a thirty-second trip around Google or Wikipedia, other times it just feels overly aggressive and unnecessary.

Frankly, I’ve had far more aggressive responses to my worldview from Christians who don’t agree with my politics, than I have ever had from non-Christians who don’t agree with my faith – and I work full time as an evangelist!

These responses are some of the reasons I rarely, if ever, post about politics online. It saves a lot of energy just staying silent.

Why am I posting now?

I believe this is, by a long margin, the most important election I have ever voted in. It is oozing in bile-soaked rhetoric, covered by steaming heaps of misinformation, and saturated in soundbite-tested, downright lies.

However…

The last nine years has seen a 2400% rise in food bank usage, a 1000% rise in homelessness, and a 300% increase in tuition fees.

35% of the country’s children live in poverty, 750 youth centres have closed, a 300% increase in tuition fees and a 70% increase in teen suicide.

There are 36,000 less teachers, 25,000 less police officers, 10,000 less firefighters, 10,000 less medical professionals, and half of councils are facing bankruptcy.

80% of self-employed people live under the poverty line, 40% of working households have no savings, and 60% of households can only survive 2 months without a wage.

Are you freaking kidding me?

How we vote tomorrow will have a demonstrable effect on the future of so many people. It’s really hard to stay silent.

Minority beliefs

Christians have minority beliefs – that’s the nature of the beast and we all get it.

Speaking of minority beliefs politically, I am a lifelong Labour supporter. I became a member when I was about 16 during studying politics at A-Level. I also went to two party conferences in Blackpool at the time.

I’m also ‘relatively’ socialist – at least in a very broad sense. I believe that the distribution of wealth is largely unfair, and that resources are not likely to trickle down from innately selfish people. I think that capitalism has a long history of inefficiently creating a surplus of goods which are then wasted, and a long rap sheet of economic disasters. I believe there is enough wealth in the world to pay off global debt and give every man, woman and child a home, transport, and access to both education and healthcare. I also believe that it’s possible to work enough to live well, support others, and still enjoy social time to learn, relax, and worship.

I think the Bible largely speaks in these terms. I believe we’re told to look after the poorest amongst us, to spend our finances on helping everyone flourish, and to lead with a servant-hearted, compassionate approach to society. Money (especially the short-sighted accumulation of it) is largely seen as a destructive evil. In contrast, we’re told to give cheerfully and secretly.

There is still a mandate to work hard and fairly for our living and not be idle – but you can’t draw a straight line from that to market capitalism.

This has never gone down well with my Christian brothers and sisters. Granted, I did used to work in Britain’s safest Conservative seat, and right now I’m living in another Conservative seat (at the moment). I also first went to Bible College with mostly middle-class men, who were largely conservative in their worldviews.

The Death of Critical Thinking

Those who know me well know that I like to think of myself as a ‘lay epistemologist’. I love thinking about thinking. I’m a huge believer in abstract thought, clashing objective reasoning, cultural thought models, finding tracks through nuance, and exploring the vast landscapes of ‘grey areas.’

This is one of the reasons that I think I’m quite good at my job. Teenagers will consider faith with people who genuinely set up ways of exploring faith without attached dogmatisms. This doesn’t mean that I don’t hold strong views and robust opinions. I do. But I intentionally try to explore other points of view while holding mine in tension. For those of you who know apologetic theory – this was the initial foundation to presuppositionism.

The problem is that political discourse discourages critical engagement. Online conversation only really gives room for the polarised, the sensationalised, the extreme, and the entrenched. When I open my mouth to explore nuance, I’m usually packaged, branded, organised and then dismissed.

Here’s an example:

I believe the 2016 referendum needed to be rerun – because: 1. It was too close to change a significant status quo whereas previous precedent would have required a 2/3rds majority; 2. Crimes were committed, and rules were broken which influenced the result; 3. Economic positions are much clearer now; 4. It didn’t allow for damage to the Union through devolved results; 5. There was no worked out plan for what ‘leave’ would look like; 6. The leave deals campaigned on ideas that we now know are not available to us; 7. Nearly four years have elapsed and lots has changed in that time; 8. Polls tell us there is a shift in opinion; 9. The 2017 election was to find a mandate to negotiate, which didn’t happen; 10. The people who would be effected by this this most (or at least the longest) had the smallest voice – many of whom can now vote; 11. The negotiations have been handled incredibly badly which has really embarrassed the UK on the international stage.

These are reasons that you may not agree with – but they are considered by experts and should be thought about critically. However, the only response I’ve ever had to rerunning the referendum is ‘that’s anti-democratic’ or ‘you don’t’ respect the choice of the people’ or ‘but you lost, move on!’

Democracy demands conversation, and the reason we have elections at least twice a decade is to give people the option to converse on and focus their thinking. Add to this the incredible lack of understanding of how referendums actually work in an electoral democracy, and things really start to get silly.

So, what am I doing tomorrow?

I will be voting Labour. The media narrative surrounding Jeremy Corbyn is unprecedented. There have been so many properly researched reports by independent groups showing the incredible amount of malicious bias against him. Do you believe the narrative? Trace the threads, look at the competing views of the sources, and make an informed choice.

I don’t believe he’s ‘a friend of terrorists’ – that is glib reduction of his activist history in the pursual of peace. I don’t believe he’s anti-Semitic – he has taken serious action against those in his party to tackle racism and has a long history of doing so (although granted, there is still work to be done across all parties on this heinous and wicked issue). I don’t believe he’s going to bankrupt the country – his proposals are considered at the highest level by many world-leading economists and are still tame compared to many other countries in Europe looking at investment models.

However, I do believe his optimism is a little shallow. It looks like there will be a broader tax increase for more than just the top 5% – although that should be less than the increases of the last nine years. I don’t think the savings he’s projecting for the working classes will largely come into effect for another 15 or so years at best, and aren’t balanced against unpredictable inflation. I also think some of his approaches to international policy can be a little naive.

However again, he’s always worked hard for peace, he believes in a fairer distribution of wealth, and he’s got a statesman approach to dialogue. Honestly, I trust him, and believe he believes in what he says. More locally, my constituency candidate for Labour is also fabulous – so I’m happy all round.

I’ll be awake all-night Thursday. I’m praying, I’m hoping, I’m talking, I’m trying to believe – and of course I’m voting. What about you?

 

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Why your youth worker never takes a holiday…

When I worked for my first church, I discovered a rock-and-hard-place fact about vacation time: I couldn’t take any!

Throughout school term time, there was a strong feeling across the congregation that I needed to be around for all the projects in case the teenagers ‘needed’ me.

During the Summer holidays, the regular volunteers had historically taken a break, so I needed to flash-mob together an ad hoc temporary team for the many youth and children’s groups the church insisted we still had to run.

During Easter and Christmas, I was expected to put on seasonal events, be involved in all the main church frivolities, and again be around for the young people that might ‘need’ me.

The result: 4 years, with just 28 days of holiday taken all together. I quit, after taking doctor’s advice at the time.

Most of these holidays were last minute and stressful. They weren’t booked in advance, as my line manager held out on letting me go until he was 100% sure I’d covered everything, so they cost an arm and a leg.

It’s worth saying that this was – at least at the time – a very unhealthy church. I once plucked up the courage to tentatively tell my line manager that I was working 70hr weeks, only to have him respond, “well, we all do that. That’s ministry!” They didn’t put a premium on time off. In fact, my vicar called me on my days off to give him rides to various places, even if that meant returning from whatever day-trip my wife and I were attempting.

However, although this is a particularly unhealthy example, it’s not all that extreme. No one pulling the reins were aware that they were making it hard for me to take holidays, it was just a lot of misplaced assumptions about my position that unfortunately conspired to that end.

Today I read this facebook post on a youth worker group:

Just had our head deacon talk to me… they hesitantly approved my vacation time request that goes over Christmas. He said some think I need to be here for college students, etc and a pastor should be here for Christmas and so I shouldn’t expect such approval in the future. I told him I have a big problem with that… this is one of two times out of the year I can truly take time off.

The responses to this varied wildly. One said, “You’re a staff member who won’t be working on Christmas Eve? Tread carefully friend.” Another, “No church that I have ever worked at allowed me to miss Christmas Eve. That’s one of those days you just don’t miss.”

One person, glibly, but I think rightly responded, “If they can’t do it without you, they shouldn’t be doing it.”

It seems the issue is still alive after all!

With that in mind, here’s a few things to think about:

1. If your youth worker isn’t taking time off, they won’t be your youth worker for very long.

2. If your youth worker isn’t taking time off, they won’t be a very good youth worker for long either.

3. If you expect your youth leader to always book their holidays last minute, you better pay them enough to be able to do that.

4. If you expect your youth leader to always book their holidays last minute, you better hope they can work without looking forward to things.

5. If you think your young people should ‘need’ your youth worker over their own health, then you might want to rethink your approach to youth work.

6. If you think your young people should ‘need’ your youth worker over their own health, then you might want to rethink your approach to church.

7. If you’re going to insist that your youth leader is always around during term-time, then you better not have any expectations on them for Summer, Easter, or Christmas.

8. If you insist on having your youth worker around for Summer, Easter, and Christmas, you better get used to them taking off chunks of term-time.

9. Expecting your youth leader to be around for every seasonal event every year is just stupid, selfish, stupid, and greedy. A little bit of HR wisdom goes a long way.

10. If your youth leader has a family, you need to help them prioritise their family time.

11. If your youth leader doesn’t have a family, you need to allow them to room to choose to have one.

12. You shouldn’t do any ministry beyond what you can resource – that’s good stewardship. Knowing a youth worker is required to have healthy recuperation time should be factored into those resources choices. 40hrs a week to fulfil a job description is not the whole story – have a look at the annual leave section too!

13. Empowering your youth leader to develop a team that works without them is good practice and good theology.

14. Taking a project off or cancelling an event won’t kill anyone!

Food for thought

 

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Can we please rethink fluffy bunnies?

Fluffy bunnies, otherwise known as chubby bunnies or chipmunking, is the upfront game that involves stuffing as many marshmallows into your mouth as possible without gagging or spitting. The objective is to coherently say the phrase ‘fluffy bunnies’ – or something to that effect – with a very, very full mouth. Hilarious right?

Now, I know I’m going to come across like a killjoy, but I really don’t think fluffy bunnies should be a thing. I’m also aware that this will be one of my more unpopular posts, so I might as well go all in: Playing any game with children that 1.) poses a genuine risk to them choking, and 2.) is sincerely discouraged by doctors is just stupid, stupid, stupid.

A worthy risk?

Call me old fashioned, but the idea of restricting the airways of young people by stuffing sweets in their mouth seems to me to be just a little bit odd. The obvious question is why? Why would we play any game that purposely inhibits a child breathing? ‘Because it’s fun, Tim, you weirdo!’ Well, there’s plenty of really fun games around, so why should the fun of this particular game outweigh the risks?

Granted, I’m not a fan of wasteful food games anyway, but I’m happy to really dig my heels in here and be labelled ‘over-protective.’ I certainly do plenty of daft things as a youth leader, but there are some things you just don’t mess with. Surely we can all get together and say that a child’s breathing is one of them?

It’s quite telling that the game grew in popularity in American frat houses as a hazing, often under the influence of copious amounts of funnelled alcohol. However, even after reported deaths from suffocation playing this game – including 12-year-old Casey Fish from Chicago – Christian youth groups continue to play it.

This really freaks me out. We have many fantastic games, and a bottomless pit of creativity in the youth ministry world. Why do we keep needing to roll the dice with this one? It’s degrading, wasteful, and frankly unreasonably dangerous.

When the medics and the youth leaders disagree

Almost every site that recommends this game now comes with safety disclaimers about supervision, appropriate ages, and even the presence of CPR-trained first-aiders. While these things might be true for other games too, the risk of this game isn’t injury, it’s death. Risk of falling or breaking an arm is just not the same as the risk of choking or suffocating.

In the US, two children die every week from choking on food, and it’s the fifth biggest killer of under-fives.

Fatherly reports Surgeon Dr. Christopher Hollingsworth as saying,

Marshmallows tend to be hard to remove from the airway, because of their ability to compress and then re-expand, as well as their texture which does not slide easily in or out of the airway.

And Dr. Zubair Ahmed said,

Children playing games such as Chubby Bunny might sound harmless, but the reality is that they pose serious risks of choking and suffocation… While many parents will understand that the combination of laughter and mouths stuffed with marshmallows is not a safe activity for children, others still do not fully understand the dangers of such choking games.

In contrast, one youth worker told me ‘we’ve played it for years and no one has ever choked’, and another actually said ‘just have a leader around who knows CPR and you’ll be fine.’

Forgive me if I side with the doctors.

The inherent risk with fluffy bunnies is not cuts and bruises, its suffocation. Why would we ever defend this as ‘acceptable’?

But don’t all games come with risk?

Many of our games come with a risk of injury, but we shouldn’t be playing anything where the risk is asphyxiation.

We wouldn’t encourage games that promote putting a hand over a child’s mouth to restrict their breathing, so why would we allow stuffing things into their mouth to the same effect?

Choking is just not an acceptable risk, and it only takes one totally tragic event to change our minds, but by then it’ll be too late. The fact that one of the youth workers I talked to above said  there needed to be a leader around who knew how to resuscitate a child after playing it tells a story.

We can’t eliminate risk from our games, sure. That’s exactly why we have risk-assessments, supervision, training, consent forms, and insurance. We certainly play a few bonkers games in my groups that come with what we believe is an acceptable level of risk. Even football, for instance, obviously comes with a reasonable level of risk. That said, I’ve never seen anyone playing football score a goal and then try to swallow the ball to the encouragement of their youth worker.

Mechanical injury is one thing, but that’s not what we’re risking here. We’re talking about restricting children’s airways – surely this is off limits? What possible reason could we have that’s good enough to exploit a real choking danger for entertainment?

Let’s rethink

I think that there’s only one thing worse than ramming large expanding pieces of confectionery down a child’s throat, and that’s getting them to do it to themselves to the sounds of cheers and ridicule.

At the risk of sounding alarmist and legalistic, could we possibly rethink this game and stop playing Russian Roulette with our kids’ safety?

When something is lodged in our throats causes a blockage, our instinct is to get rid of it. This game forces our young people to fight that instinct and make the blockage even worse. When you add to this laughter and peer pressure, a sudden sharp intake of breath can very quickly turn the game into something immensely more serious. What do you do then – tell them to spit when they can’t even breathe? When their lips start to turn blue do you put your fingers in their mouth to clear the barrier? Will the Heimlich work when the sweets congeal into a gel that  turns to glue in their throats?

What controls could ever make this OK?

If – God forbid – something tragic did ever happen as a result of playing this game, how would we defend our risk-assessment to a parent? What would that conversation even look like? ‘… Yes, I know it seems strange getting children to see who can stuff the most gelatinous sweets into their mouths, but… but… well it’s fun…’

I’m guessing this may rile a few people up. Sorry, I didn’t really mean to but I really feel very strongly about this. A widespread game that poses such a serious breathing risk needs a serious rethink. If youth workers were playing this game with my kids I’d want to know why they were being so caviler with my children’s safety.

‘It’s fun’ or ‘well, none of my kids have ever choked’ or ‘we have people around who know how to resuscitate’ are just not good enough reasons for me. Sorry. Find a new game.

There are plenty of fun games in the world. Check out some of my bonkers ones here. But when it comes to choking, asphyxiation, and suffocation – let’s just rethink it!

Thanks for listening to the rant 🙂